Today I felt the way I felt two years ago, and I immediately had a thought for my best buddy Randy, who could have totally said something like ‘Told you so’, or something like that.
Don’t worry, I’m far away from sinking like I did last year (who knows though ? I’ve been listening to Adele all day) but I’ve been doing some thinking, about - you get my drift - relationships.
I was thinking about these people you meet, randomly, unexpectedly, and they do change the way you are forever. One day they realize they had enough and slowly leave the building (don’t you all hate that feeling..?). I’ve been there myself, and felt really low after realizing the person I trusted the most simply didn’t care about my feelings.
I tried, though, to keep that person in my life, by any means. And it didn’t work. So I myself decided that as this person was somehow still in my life, it was MY turn to erase (almost) every memory we had.
And I had the best eight months of my life in a very long while until last month.
I guess I did the right choice by not letting this person come back in my life, but here is what I was thinking, and I’m kinda hoping for some answers, to be honest. How can a person change your life that much ? Even if your feelings towards her have changed, you still can’t totally forget and rely on every bit of a great time you had together. Do you think it’s normal for someone to still think of this person in any way, even though you moved on ? Was this person the love of my life ? My soul mate ? The best friend I’ve ever had ?